Every day I’m still amazed at my capacity to love this girl. Every time I think I’ve reached 100%, she looks at me, and I melt and am built back up again with even more love coursing through my veins. Her smile takes my breatha way, and her laugh stops my heart. She has the most incredible spirit and I can’t imagine living a single day without it.
Landslide still gives me feelings. Particularly at 3:30.
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My girlfriend has given me a completely new view on teachers. I was always the kid who hated teachers, I thought I was smarter than them (and I was smarter than some). I viewed teachers as lazy, incompetent, more or less useless. Hearing her talk about her kids, though. The genuine excitement when they learn something. How invested she is in each of their lives. Watching her spend her own free time searching for fun, exciting, conceptual projects for them to do. I’ve always been a sucker for listening to people talk about their passions. But Goddamn, the way her entire soul lights up when she talks about teaching. Makes me fuckin weak in the knees.
You can always tell how badly a movie adaptation of a book is when you watch it with someone who’s never read the book.
Sure, they may be entertained…but they’ll still have questions, and confusion. And rarely will it resonate as deeply.
Yea she’s hot, and this gay kid has NO chance. He bakes? Fuuuuuck.
Drinking coffee, ignoring the snow, aaaaaand watching The Hunger Games.
My fabulous girlfriend woke me up this morning by surprising me that she’s taking me to see Catching Fire todaaaaaay!!!!!!!!
It went alright. Not great, but not awful. Should be hearing back on Tuesday; either yes, no, or a second interview.
I receive an email from another company looking to schedule a phone interview, so we’ll see where that goes.
Today I’m sending out more resumes and following up on companies I haven’t heard back from on the FIRST round of resumes. Megan gave me a talking to about my penchant for putting all my hopes and dreams into one place, then being crushed when it doesn’t work out. So I’m trying to balance my hopefulness and positivity with reality and continue my search until I actually get a job offer!
I applied for 13ish jobs last night. Mostly Web Design/Marketing/Graphic Design….a few administrative jobs.
Aaaaaand…I got a call already! A Web Design/Marketing firm in a nearby town called to schedule an interview….so I’m doing that Thursday evening. The salary they’re offering is more than double my yearly salary right now. Plus immediate paid days off, full medical/dental/vision, and a 401k package. This could be the EXACT break I’m looking for.
Please keep your fingers crossed, think positive thoughts, pray, send good juju, whatever it is you do to send positivity….do it!!
I am resolved to get myself the fuck out of debt, find a better job, and put “future me” in the best circumstances possible.
Just for reference:
$5,000 car debt
$4,000 credit card debt
$65,000 student loan debt
I make $1,440.00/month
Wish me luck. I may or may not start a separate blog to create some accountability for myself. Or I might blow this page up with boring financial shit.
So I was reading a thread on marriage over at Reddit and a lot of the thoughts just really bothered me.
The question is, “what is the best part about being married?” The majority of answers were things like having someone I’m comfortable/safe with, having a guaranteed partner in the future, being able to make plans, etc., etc.
All I can think is, aren’t these all feelings you should have BEFORE you get married? Why are you signing a legally binding document, and promising to spend the rest of your life with someone you aren’t completely comfortable with? Someone who doesn’t make your life easier? Someone you can’t plan for a future with? Do you believe you’ll say “I do,” sign a paper, make a toast and magic will swirl around you and change things?
To be sure, time spent with someone changes things. You go through successes and failures together, support each other through adversity, grown and change and relearn about each other. But that’s all true for any relationship in life. From significant others, siblings, friends, and family. Why do so many people feel a legal marriage makes that more real?
In the last year my girlfriend and I have dealt with multiple family deaths, putting a friend in rehab, and her sister moving across the country. We’ve supported each other through job changes, unemployment, family drama, and moves. And we’ve celebrated multiple milestones along the way. Would those events be more meaningful if we were married? Are our jokes less funny? Is our comfort less comforting? That’s bullshit. All legalities aside, nothing will change the day we get married. Sure we’ll wear rings, and call each other wife…but the way we feel? That will be exactly the same.
Marriage isn’t an EVENT, it’s a choice you make every single day. Just because you voice that decision in front of your family while you’re all dresses up doesn’t make that the only time you make that choice.